So I changed the blog, partly because i was tired of it, partly because i guess that i have changed so much that rereading the old posts made me kind of sad, like i couldn't recognize who had said all those things. i guess i always told people that the whole point of coming here was to change and grow, but i never actually realized it would happen, and definetly not like this. i deleted a bunch of stuff, which is a little scary, kind of like i deleted that part of my life as well, (a bit dramatic, but still..) i didnt see the point of most of the things i had thought were so important to mention.
It was only after i left that i realized exactly how much i hated being there in the first place. People in brazil probably cant stand talking to me on the phone because i am so chippery and annoying, i just want people to shut up and listen to hundreds of my life in france stories. When i go back i am going to be an obnoxious brat going on and on about all the things i did. but i really cant help it, its been very long since i can truely say i am happy, and i am. i am very happy.